As we get
closer to the time to leave the States (August 21) many are asking me if I am
ready to go back to Loja. I smile and say yes. Sometimes when I am alone I
wonder if I am really ready to go back.
I have
conflicting emotions. I love Loja, the people, chasing trash cans, teaching
beside Terry and working in our small church we attend. I like the simple life
we have there. There are people who need to know Jesus there.
In the
States I love being with the lambs (grandchildren) , spending time with our parents
and fellowshipping with our brothers and sisters in Christ. I enjoy the small town life, thrift stores and Dr. Pepper.
We will be
leaving parents who are getting on in years and I feel a responsibility to
them. Our grandchildren are growing up so fast and I love being able to be a
part of their lives. It is hard to look at our house and see someone else
living in it. Sometimes I think of the job Terry left and the security that it
gave me. To be honest it would be nice to stay here.
But I know I
can’t depend on emotion or my desires. I have done that many times and made
wrong decisions. God asks of me to obey.
He didn’t say if you feel like it or even if you’re happy about it.
The emotions are conflicting but I know that God will give us peace and contentment in obedience. He did last year and he will the coming year.